Diariku…

sakit hatiku…

kesalahanku diperburukkan lagi ke atas insan yg belum mengenal erti salah..ceritanya begini..

seusai aku mengemas rumah, aku ke dapur untuk bersarapan sambil menemani kakakku yang sedang memasak untuk makan tengahari. sambil-sambil itu aku bermain bersama si anak kecil, anak jiran kami, yang kemudiannya aku tinggalkan bersama abangnya yg berusia sekitar dua tahun. walau sekejap cuma aku meninggalkannya, kemalangan kecil berlaku. si anak kecil itu terjatuh lalu menangis.

aku sandarkan kemalangan itu berlaku kerana kecuaianku tetapi kakakku dengan pantas menghukum si abang. si abang lalu menangis. mengapa perlu dihukum si kecil yang tidak kenal erti salah itu? iya, budak kecil memang nakal. itu memang fitrahnya. tidak salah untuk marah tetapi bukan dengan menghukum.

yang pasti, kejadian ini menambahkan lagi kesakitan dalam hati.

to be continued…

Salam…

i’ve check my result..

alhamdulillah..i passed all my subjects especially the core courses.

but my pointer drops..below 3..

i dunno..i think dat’s bad..

why? lack of effort, i guess..

it gradually effects me..really effects me..

i’m ashamed of myself. i’m surrounded by great people.. and me? i’m feeling like i’m not belong to them..but i wanna be like them..be apart of them..

i’m ashamed..when people ask me to join them..i’m ashamed..

how can i ask them to do things that i could barely do? dat’s not fair, rite?

i’ve been thinking..i can’t keep on letting myself feeling bad because of my result. dat’s my fault n i just can’t let it eat me. apart from du’a, the only thing that can help me is me..myself.

gosh hawa..

be strong, girl. don’t let them control you..it’s you who suppose to control them.

be strong, girl.

don’t get carried away..

don’t get carried away..

don’t get carried away…

don’t let yourself be carried away…

Salam ppl. today’s Sunday and i just got back from Janda Baik..went there for a program and i was the assistant chef for the program. ;P it was really tiring though it was just for 2 days (it was 1 day actually..saturday afternoon to sunday afternoon). the program had shortage of manpower so there we were to help them out.

we had BBQ last nite..we had grilled chicken n fried rice. well, wanna know who grilled da chicken? WE did! ya..we did it all by ourselves(p/s: the cook n me are both female..n ya..it was just da two of us).

well, supposedly the BBQ was to be handled by the guys at 9pm and but they had to extend their slot that we had to grill the chicken for them. to us, it wasn’t that easy, ya know. we used charcoals to grill the chicken and it took some time for us to burn up the charcoals (susoh beno nak nyalekan arang nih). (big thanx to our guy friend for helping us out in burning the charcoals. =D) the slot prolonged till 12pm and by the time, we had grilled all the chicken and sausages. it was tiring and ‘burning’ and..well..it was an experience. =)

and today(it’s Sunday..remember?) we prepared lunch for 20 people..all by our own. and you can see how proud i am coz’ i never cook for that number of people before. plus, i’m not a good cook. for lunch, i fried scramble eggs. =D we had simple lunch: sardine, vege and my special scramble egg. we spent 1 hour to cook all of them. MasyaALLAH, it was very tiring. after cooking, instead of eating, we went back and had some nap. Zzzz…

hehe..one thing for sure, being a cook was pretty an experience. it was more tiring than being a PC. serious…

alrighty..that’s all for now. neway, if you need a cook(or egg scrambler), call me. haha XD

Assalamu’alaikum dan salam sejahtera semua. pertama sekali, maaf dipinta kerana kelewatan saya dalam mengemaskini blog ini. terima kasih kepada saudari Hasanah kerana mengingatkan saya akan hal ini.

ketika menaip entri ini, saya sedang bermain permainan ‘tagged’ bersama seorang rakan. inilah kali pertama saya bermain permainan tersebut. bagi mereka yang tidak tahu cara hendak bermain permainan ini, mari saya terangkan. permainannya mudah sahaja, jika anda di’tag’, anda perlu beritahu kepada semua barang-barang yang ada di dalam barang peribadi anda contohnya dompet anda. anda perlu senaraikan segala benda yang ada di dalam dompet anda tanpa tertinggal satu pun sama ada nilai wang, kad bank hinggalah ke gambar. mudah sahaja, bukan?

permainan ini boleh disertai samada secara berdua atau berkumpulan. ikut citarasa anda. lebih seronok jika permainan ini dimainkan secara berantai. selepas anda di’tag’, ‘tag’ kawan anda yang lain pula. agak menarik, bukan? selamat bermain! =)

p/s: entri akan datang: "Pencemaran Budaya: Jangan Kita Biarkan Ia Berterusan"